In 2011 I went to a performance by the EXCEL (A Performing Arts School) tour team. I was blown away by what they did! They were extremely talented, but on top of that I was so impacted by how they used their talents to show God's love, to worship Him, to present the Gospel. I began to think about EXCEL and wondered if it might be a possibility for my future.
At the end of 2012 I began to take notice of the fact that I was coming up to my last year of school-age and I was going to have to make some decisions on what I did with my life. Something about me is I've never had a particular job or career that I've wanted to do/have. When I started thinking about EXCEL a bit more seriously - investigating the website etc, I was too scared to tell anyone. For a starter, it's in Auckland, not exactly close to where I live in Wellington. Then there's what everyone says about it being so hard to have a career in that industry. And finally, I struggled with wanting to know what it was that God wanted for me, not simply what I wanted for myself. Based on that last point, I've spent a lot of time praying and seeking what it is God wants to use me for next year and beyond. At Easter Camp this year I opened up and told a friend I had this longing to go to EXCEL. They totally encouraged me in it saying "If it's what you wanna do - go for it!". Not long after camp I finally told my family that this had been on my mind as a possibility. From then on, I felt so much better about investigating it.
In August this year I was at a camp and asked a couple of real onto it guys if they would pray for me and my future and wondering if this is what God had for me. One of the guys, Sam, got this picture for me saying that God was gonna take each step of my life with me as I seek to honour Him, whether that includes EXCEL or not. That gave me a real peace about things.
A few weeks ago I was finally in a place where I was courageous and confident enough to put in an application for the school. A week or so later I received an e-mail saying I had a confirmed audition!!!
I couldn't be happier! Or more nervous!
The audition is THIS WEDNESDAY! Only two sleeps away. I sort of wondered if I should be telling people that I got the audition. I mean, what if I don't get accepted and then everyone will know I'm not good enough... Well, although I don't know if I'm going to get in or not I decided that there's no good in living in doubt. You simply have to learn to be content with whatever happens! I'm going to enjoy auditioning and performing no matter the results. I know that God has a plan for my life. I'll just have to look a little deeper and try some other doors if this one doesn't open.
I would love your prayers surrounding this! I used to be genuinely afraid of my future. Fear is crippling and stops you doing your best. Leave fear behind and put your all into your life right now. The future is not be be feared. Every day is a blessing from God and I'm excited to see what He does with each next day of my life as I live as a God Girl :)
PS: Here's a sneaky link to a video of me practising for my audition http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SiNnVcatZzY
PS: Here's a sneaky link to a video of me practising for my audition http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SiNnVcatZzY
